Let’s see if I can actually publish rather than half finishing these posts.
- We received a 90 day notice from our landlord. It’s hard finding a place in a decent location, but I’m feeling more optimistic than upset. Though it’ll be very difficult building up our savings again since we have to increase our budget by another $400. All I can say is that I better find a fucking house.
- I started therapy on Sunday. So far, I really like it. I feel a lot more aware of how I treat myself. Yesterday, I filled out a questionnaire, and it made me painfully aware of how much I need help.
- My sister contacted me yesterday. She’s having issues with mom and dad. My mom contacted me recently and apologized for how she treated me as a kid. It was over e-mail, but that’s definitely more than she’s ever done. She actually sounds a lot like me as a teenager. I feel awful for missing such important parts of her life. I guess I didn’t know where I belonged and instead of finding a way, I ran.
- Summer Flake is flawless.
- In the past few months, I’ve made an extra effort to open up and meet more people, but it doesn’t seem to work out. But I guess there are so many people out in the world, it’s not going to fit perfectly. Yhere were a few instances where I wasn’t interested in continuing the friendship just because I felt incompatible with the person, and I didn’t really feel like I was being me. The only time I really feel like I’m being me is when I’m by myself. I think that’s true for most people though. I’ve been looking at Meetup, and I plan on joining a book club.
- I feel very uncertain about my life. Welcome to the club, Jo.
So I found the vinyl deal of the century (not really). Groupon has a 20% off deal, and I found another deal on Music Millennium ($20 for used items, only paid $8). And Music Millennium is celebrating their 47th year, so they’re taking off 20% for all new and used items. Yas.
This is why I’m broke.
I had the oddest memory come back to me. After I graduated high school, I moved to Roseburg for a few months, and I remember listening to all of my mix tapes. The drive felt so quick. The song I remember the most is The Light by Mirah. There are two versions, and my absolute favorite is the one from To All We Stretch an Open Arm. I played that song so much on my tape player that I knew exactly when to stop when rewinding.
Wes usually goes to sleep before I do. He’ll call Dippy, and Dippy will immediately run to the bedroom. A few moments later, Dippy will come by and meow until I go to bed. There’s no other way to silence him.
I’m also obsessed with this song.
$5 for a 7″, so I went for it. I don’t think I have enough singles in my life. I’m waiting for pinkshinyultrablast’s new record. I received the shipment information yesterday along with a download code, but I want to wait until I hear it on vinyl. Nerd.
I’m not sure if it’s the sun or what, but I’m feeling really positive this week. The bake sale was a small success, and I’ve gotten so much done at work. There’s a lot more to do, but it’s nice working at a place where there’s flexibility. I’m also learning how to accept people who don’t really get me. Sometimes, I feel like I’m met with judgment, but that’s not really my problem. I wish relationships with others were easier, but I realize everyone is going through their own problems just like I am. Even if I’m not met with kindness, I can still be kind.
I’m making more refried beans this weekend, because they were incredible the last time we had them. This time around, I’m making it with homemade stock, and the chicken I have will be used for enchiladas. Wes is also in the mood for chicken parmesan, so that’s happening. A few times. Last week, I made ramen for the first time, broth and ramen noodles. I didn’t have much to add to the soup, but Wes is getting a few extra vegetables for me to use tonight. I found an interesting recipe online that used baked soda. You bake baking soda at 250 for about an hour and include it with the recipe. I’m not sure if that made a difference, but the noodles were great. I find it hilarious that ramen is so popular with people my age considering we were forced to eat it during hard times. But when you get it from a good restaurant or make it at home, it’s great.
Last week, I worked out my budget, and I can pay off all of my debt by March of next year. I do have to be a bit strict, but we have a good emergency fund, and I am just ready to live without debt. I will also save $3,000 in interest, so that’s a plus. In the past, I was horrible with money, but I feel so much better about debt and finances. After everything is paid off, I’m going to max out my Roth IRA and put more toward my retirement account at work. I feel like an adult. At 27. But I’m sure tomorrow I won’t feel like an adult at all. Especially when I’m in my underwear until noon playing video games.
Wes found two bento boxes for me at the grocery store. I haven’t been very creative with my boxes, but it’s fun putting together fruits and veggies for the work day.
For the past few months, Wes has been riding his bike to work everyday. He takes the bus home since his route isn’t very bike friendly but at 5 a.m., it’s deserted, so he goes for it. He’s improved his time tremendously and bikes about three times a week. This then prompted me to begin walking to work again. When I started, I was super into it but Wes brought me down to earth. I don’t want to get injured again, so I’m going to get back into it slowly. This week, I walked to work twice. I plan on doing three times next week and continuing that until I feel ready to add another day. Wes and I are so different in that aspect. I’m all or nothing, and he’s slow and steady. He’s a crock pot. I’m a cast iron. It works that way. I push him harder, and he tells me to slow down and enjoy the process. Who knew the love of my life would complement me so well?
Do you ever have so much to do you don’t know where to start so you just do other things that aren’t even on your list? And then you freak out and procrastinate even more?
I’m setting up a bake sale later in the month for a food drive. I’m a little bit more into it than I should be.
I’m making risotto and lasagna this weekend. I’m a little too excited.
I’m in the middle of meal prep and came up with a brilliant idea. The idea mainly sprouted from laziness, but laziness is just another word for resourceful. I had the flour out to make the dumpling wrappers for the potstickers and thought, “Why don’t I just make these into meatballs?” So I’m making them into meatballs. It should go great with the vegetable stir fry I’m making. I did a Google search, and it turns out potsticker meatballs are already a thing. I’m sure mine will be just as tasty.
I tried parmesan truffle fries for the first time yesterday, and they were great. I might try truffle popcorn tonight.
As someone with an issue with binge eating, it’s strange to me that I find comfort in cooking so much. I still use food to deal with life sometimes, but I’m doing so much better. I do my best when I’m cooking. Since food is unavoidable, I figured it was better to fall in love with it rather than demonize it. My problem with food wasn’t that I liked it too much. It was that I used it as a way to punish myself.
Update: after a day of cooking, I just realized our fridge isn’t working. The replacement is coming tomorrow. Until then, we’re packing everything in ice and hoping that helps. I think it’ll be fine.
Also, I made cheesecake.
Wes and I did our taxes yesterday, and I must have filled something out wrong the first time, because we originally owed almost $2,000. I’m glad we double checked. Also, it was incredibly cute doing our taxes together.
Meal prep for next week
I haven’t eaten out in over two weeks, which is a feat considering December was eat at all the food carts month. I was feeling really burnt out with cooking all the time since I wasn’t meal planning like I usually do. So I guess this is a plug for meal planning. It works.
Meal prep for next week:
- chicken, spinach & artichoke pasta
- honey garlic chicken (this recipe from Maangchi looks unbelievable too)
- beef & potato burritos
I think I’m tired of soup for now. Wes is getting a whole chicken tomorrow, and I’ll probably make a pot pie with the meat and make some stock.
- I’m making a mix for my boss. During the staff meeting we were talking about music, and she gave me a pretty good idea of what she likes. Glad to be back on my mix making game.
- Vacation in April! I’m going to cook, read, get my teeth cleaned, buy new glasses and enjoy the spring.
- Julia Holter in less than two weeks! I am incredibly excited to see her live.
- I’m now obsessed with bento boxes. For the past few weeks, I’ve been making Wes’ lunch everyday, and I had the urge to make one. So, it’s happening.
- I am also obsessed with kettle corn. I haven’t had it in years but had a hankering after watching an episode of Community. I burned my finger the first time, but it was so worth it.
- Lately, I’ve really gotten into planning for retirement. We opened Roth IRAs, and I opened a retirement account through work.
- I didn’t realize how lucky I am with my job until I added Wes to my health insurance.
- I won a $25 gift card. Stuff like that is exciting. My break from Pact is also done, so I should be bringing in some extra beer money soon. I thought about buying records, but I really need new shoes.
- My neighbors were up all night and finally quieted down around 7:30 a.m. Of course I blared music when they fell asleep. Why wouldn’t I? I’ve been up since 2:00 a.m. listening to their stomping and yelling. At least I finished meal prep at 10:00 a.m.
- I’m making these potato wedges. I automatically make anything with garlic and parmesan. It smells heavenly.
Three hours in the kitchen, and I ended up with the following:
- fried rice with spam and extra vegetables (spam makes fried rice incredibly delicious)
- stir fry with beef, cabbage and broccoli
- apple fritters (I tried the banana coconut fritters last night, and they were fantastic, so I thought I would try apple fritters)
- salted caramel (for said fritters)
- chicken breasts (for sandwiches, wraps and salads with feta and red bell peppers)
- spinach pesto
- vanilla ice cream
I even made our lunch for tomorrow and did the dishes. It feels really good to get back into cooking. Next week, I’m trying kettle corn.