Life lately has been a collection of the good, the bad, and the “oh, no you didn’t.” With it’s difficulty, I’m learning. As I’m finally easing back into life, it’s also time to get back to progress and documentation of said progress. Here it goes.
On the 9th, we moved buildings. Unfortunately, this meant that I would either have to pay for parking downtown, take the bus, or take the light rail. I decided to try the light rail this month. At times it’s busy, and I can tell when someone has been smoking A LOT of weed, it’s probably one of the best experiences one can have. I spend a lot less on gas, as I only drive to the station, and I get to walk seven blocks to and from work. Not a bad deal at all. Even if I didn’t want to exercise, the walk would be inevitable.
Also, I never realized how gorgeous it is in the morning.
Downtown is lovely and busy, however I haven’t had much time to go exploring other than our new offices. I did have time yesterday to pimp up my cubicle. I love making patterns out of old polaroids. It kind of reminds me of my first apartment.
I don’t think I have ever been this organized. Since we are working in smaller offices, I was pleasantly surprised when our small suite would be allowed to have our own fridge. While I didn’t have time throughout the week to go grocery shopping, I did do some… ahem… eating. Since eating at Petra Greek, I haven’t had the heart to eat anywhere else. And I don’t intend on doing so. IT’S FREAKING EXPENSIVE. Their gyros are divine.
I know it looks kind of… funky, but it is incredibly tasty and gives me death breath. I’ve never seen a place put fries in their gyros, but I’ll take it. I also tried one of their burgers, and it was probably one of the best burgers I’ve had in a long time. No offense to me, but I have a lot to learn about delicious burger making.
But I did go grocery shopping! I went to Trader Joe’s and stocked up on everything I needed for the office. The only problem was walking the seven blocks to the office. It was kind of hilarious watching me carry about twenty pounds of groceries, but it was a great calorie burn. All in the name of frugality and health!
Last week, my boss took us to Pancake Circus just as a last hurrah since we were all separating to different cities. I don’t have many pictures from there other than a Pacman pancake and this delicious hot chocolate. It was great seeing everyone, and I didn’t realize everyone had chipped into get me a $100.00 Target gift card. It was really sweet, and I am incredibly thankful that I was able to work with such an amazing group of people. I won’t be seeing them as often as I would like, but hopefully we will have future get togethers.
It’s been a difficult the past month. I continue to track my calories (as bad as they may be), and I document everything as much as I can. I’ve been writing more than ever and working harder in my position. However, I feel like I’m taking all of the work away from my weight loss. I have gained a bit of weight, and I really can’t blame that on stress. It’s just me attempting to adjust to change the same way I used to. Eating doesn’t solve that, but somehow, my mind still thinks that way even if my body doesn’t exactly agree. I want to be happy, but it’s difficult understanding how. And I feel like people have these expectations of me. Not in that I have to lose weight but in that I am supposed to act a certain way. I am supposed to be happier or different… or maybe even just the same but smaller. It is really easy for me to lose friends, and it’s basically just happening all over again. This time, it’s just for the right reasons. I may be alone, but I am creating my whole life from scratch. It’s a life I deserve, and I deserve to have people around me who are supportive.
So to celebrate that change, I cut my hair. It’s my favorite pixie cut that I always get, because I can’t seem to stay away from it. I was tired of putting my hair in a bun.
I think I look a bit regal in this one. It has taken some time to get used to. It is a bit shorter than I intended it to be, but it will grow out. It will be easier to work out, and it takes maybe a few seconds to prep my hair in the morning. Honestly, I don’t think I could ever grow my hair out until it’s just right to my shoulders. I love the ease of short hair, and I think it suits some of my features. I think I was just ready for a change. With everything else around me going a bit crazy, I realized that I needed it as well… something to show on the outside to reflect what was happening inside. Here it is.
These are some pants I now fit into. This is a size 22. Another pair I purchased was a size 20. Why is fit so weird? It is a bit tight on the stomach, but it will be fun seeing it loosen up with time as I continue to get smaller. When I started, I was a size 28. It’s happening, and I love seeing it. Even my toes are kind of excited.
I’m a proud mama.
And I leave you with this. Yesterday as I was joking around with my sister, she and I were putting raisins and chocolate on our teeth. It all resulted in this… I am not proud. However, we had a good laugh for over an hour. I think the pause between sentences makes it worth it. I am learning to appreciate every little goddamn thing the world has to offer. This happened yesterday morning. How can I not fall in love with the morning when it offers me this?
And that is where this young lady has been.